I've found this is a great place for new starts for me. It's like confessing to myself. Seeing it in front of me helps to keep me accountable for my actions. I have been back at my new "lifestyle change" for a couple weeks now, and I have been feeling good. I feel strong and can feel the power I have over my cravings and laziness. If I slack off I don't beat myself up, I just try to do better the next day. Even if the weight isn't coming off as fast as I'd like it to, I know I am bettering myself and trying to be healthier. I am so grateful for all of the people in my life that have been keeping me accountable.
Gavin started his first year of little league baseball in April. It has been a struggle for him, and sometimes he fights me to go to his games but when he gets there he has so much fun. Gavin got 2 hits and recieved the "player of the game" ball. I have never seen his face light up as much as it did that night. I hope he sticks with baseball. Gavin's lost his front tooth last week, it's so weird to see him with out a front tooth but it's actually really cute! Today is the first day of Summer break for Gavin! He is so excited to be out of school for awhile. It's hard to believe we will have a 2nd grader in the fall!
Kynlee has been doing really good. We have been working on potty training, she can go #2 on the potty but still doesnt understand she has to go #1 on the toliet yet. She is starting to get her own little personality. She is sassy, sweet and sensitive.
My job has been going ok. My husbands job is going ok. Everything is well. Recently I paid off some debts that I have been needing to take care of and I am really happy to have them paid off. I am trying to work on my credit so we can move into a house in the near future.
For my Birthday in April, we took and adult trip to St. Louis to go see a cardinals game and visit one of our friends that lives there. It was an amazing vacation, it was a nice little get away. I love trips with my friends!
I really want to work on my weightloss harder. I have been trying not to weigh myself, or measure, to just go by how clothes fit otherwise I will become discouraged and quit and I don't want to do that. I keep getting bombarded by people wanting me to buy the newest and greatest weight loss suppliments, and as much as I want to buy it all, I know I can do it without all of that stuff. I just want to be happy with myself, so I can be a happier person, and a happier/better wife/mom/friend/daughter/sister. I feel to self concious all the time, and I am done living that way. I have too many good things in my life to be worried about how I look.
-Ali
